Monday, May 20, 2013

Day 16 - My "lot" in life

Epic fail on the whole "blog every day" thing......instead of one super long update post, I'm going to post the past 5 days separately.  So - happy reading!!

Day 16 - Something difficult about your "lot" in life and how you're working to overcome it

I'll admit - I have thought about what I'd put in this post almost constantly for a couple days now.  I had an idea of what to write about, but knowing at least some of my audience, I wasn't sure how much I wanted to share about that.  But that same topic kept popping into my head.  I couldn't really come up with anything else that I wanted to write about.  So - here goes - my most brutally honest post yet (not that I've been making up stuff up til this point - you know what I mean).

My recent "lot" in life is that I feel stuck in an awkward, in-between phase of life.  I've been out of college and grad school for a while now and for the most part, I feel like my career is off to a good start.  I've been very blessed to have gone to a great school and have now worked for two great companies that have compensated me well for my hard work.  I'm blessed to have wonderful friends and family around me.  I am beyond thankful that my family is not crazy.  There are so many things that I have to be thankful for that I sometimes get overwhelmed at how blessed I really am.

Here's the no-so-pretty part:  I feel it's hard not being in the same part of life as my friends.  It seems like I've taken such a different path and have ended up in a much different spot.  It makes it harder to relate.  Grad school was the point where everyone's paths started to diverge.  My friends were working and getting married.  When I finally graduated and started working, I felt "behind".  I wasn't married, and didn't date anyone for a while.  Now they're having kids; I'm at my second big-girl job, have a wonderful relationship, and two adorable dogs.  Yes, there are some similarities between kids and dogs, but there are some things that couldn't be more opposite (for example - you'd get in big time trouble for leaving the kids at home while you ran to the store or to work!).

All that to say that sometimes I don't feel like I fit in anymore - I'm not a part of the "I have a husband and kids" club.  And I know that's just a part of life and that I can't compare my life to everyone else's - I'll just be disappointed.  I hope to get to a place where I can relate again, but who knows how far down the road that is - my friends all have a pretty good head start on me.

Don't get me wrong - I truly enjoy the flexibility of my life right now! So I guess that's just what I'll do until I'm ready for those next big steps in my life.  Just keep trying new things, traveling to new places, and leaving the dogs at home while I run to Target.







2 comments:

  1. I totally understand how you feel, I was 30 when I got married and while you're so happy for those that find love earlier in life it can be difficult to not feel left out!

    You're a wonderfully accomplished, intelligent, and loved lady...you're going to have a beautiful life and family! I'm blessed to know you:)

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    1. Aww - you're so sweet Kendra!!! I know that I'll get there when the time is right :) Miss you!

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